Anyway, here is the obligatory meds shot, all set up on my IVF station. It's a tighter squeeze than I expected on my little table.
That's a 2 week supply of Lupron, 12 vials of Gonal-F, 24 vials of Menopur, 10,000 units of Novarel, and 15 days worth of Crinone. Plus an ass load of needles and other injection paraphernalia.
I hate the Menopur already. First of all, it was more than half the total bill. Second, you have to mix it. I've worked in geochemistry lab for 6 years so I should be used to this, but I've never had to inject my solutions into myself. Third of all, the needle is fucking enormous. I didn't expect that at all. I thought the 22 gauge needle for the Novarel would be the scariest thing since that's the only intramuscular (IM) injection, but when I opened up the bags and found dozens of 18 gauge needles I knew I was mistaken.
I don't think I can do it. I did a Google search to find a picture and the first site that came up was a veterinary supply store. The 18 gauge needle says "for horses". It's a fucking horse needle. I don't understand how that is going to make it's way into my stomach. I don't think it will. Hopefully someone who has used Menopur can tell me that I'm overreacting. If not, please lie to me.
ETA/Update: I went through all of my supplies again and it's true - the 18 gauge needle is just for mixing the Menopur! The Gonal-F needles were hiding in the boxes with the vials, so the perfectly innocent looking 25's must be for the actual injection. Thank God. And thank you doodmama and tigger!