It wasn't really a surprise. I've had really bad cramps and headaches for a few days which is exactly how I feel before my period starts. I know lots of people say that they felt like they were getting their period for a BFP...but I just didn't feel like it was true for me. I had a really hard time hoping that the same feeling I've had for the past 20 failed cycles would lead to a different outcome this time. What's that people say about insanity?
I'm sad. I'm heartbroken for the little embryo that didn't make it and for the other 8 that we already lost. I'm terrified. I have no idea what we'll do next or when we can do it. I just feel really helpless.
Monday, I'll go in for the official beta test and hopefully we can schedule our WTF appointment sometime soon. I sort of don't even want to go to that because I'm pretty sure we're going to be financially benched indefinitely, but I guess it's good to hear what they think anyway.
Thank you so much for all of the support throughout this cycle (and the many before it). I don't think I would have gotten through it without all of you!