MRSA

I had to google it. I knew I would find a lot of horror stories, but I need to know the facts about what I'm dealing with.

For those that don't know, MRSA stands for "Methicillin-resistant Staphylococcus aureus". Basically, it's an infection that is resistant to certain kinds of antibiotics so it can be difficult to treat until you find the right drug for that particular infection and person. It's becoming very common for people to get a MRSA infection after surgery. When it's just a skin infection, it is easier to treat. If it gets a chance to spread to your bloodstream or other major organs (heart or lungs, for example) it can be very, very serious. Sometimes it takes people many months and many rounds of antibiotics to completely fight off a MRSA infection.

So that's what I'm facing now. I've been feeling okay. Dr. M spoke to the infectious disease doctor at the hospital and they feel confident that the drug that I'm on will be able to fight the infection that I have. My mom even called my old general physician - 1200 miles away from me - who reassured her that this is common after surgery and that it sounded like my doctor was doing the right thing. (Yes, my mom is crazy, but I love her and I feel so bad that she's worrying about me.)

I'm feeling more nervous again. I'm an anxious person in general and I know that it's going to be hard for me not to think about this. I'm going to be constantly worried that it's spreading internally even if my incision looks okay on the outside. How will they know if it's really gone? Will they do a blood test?

Dr. M said that it was fine to keep TTC, but what if this antibiotic doesn't work and I actually did get pregnant? I don't think I want to be fighting a MRSA infection with a compromised immune system. Part of me thinks the doctor said it's fine, so it must be fine but another part knows that I just really want to believe it's fine because I can't handle the thought of possibly being benched until this infection is gone. I wish this wasn't happening.

In other good news, I logged in to my insurance site this morning to see that my blood work WAS covered. YAY! That's a relief. The total bill was about $1300. Maybe that's not a lot of money for some people, but I just kept thinking - that's almost one whole IUI cycle (depending on meds used and number of ultrasounds). We feel like we can only afford 2 or maybe 3 cycles without dipping into our house and baby savings, so I was so feeling really bummed about using up one cycle's worth of money. I'm going to try to focus on that bit of good news to get me through another day!