Friday, October 11, 2013


I can't take it! This cycle is the biggest mind fuck I've had since we started TTC. Here I am at 13 dpo and my temperature is still rising.

My average LP length is 13 days and my temperature starts dropping around 9 or 10 dpo. Not this time.

I tested yesterday and today and they were both 100% negative. Not even a teeny hint of a line. I'm not feeling super hopeful at this point. The HPT accuracy chart says that 68% of tests are accurate at 13 dpo. I guess I could be in the 32%. Why not? I'm in the 15% who didn't not conceive in the first year. Maybe I'm just really "lucky". I'm just too scared to feel hope. If you showed me this chart 15 months ago, I would be bouncing off the walls with excitement. Now I know better.

So. I'll just have to do my best to keep my mind off of it! I'm so glad that it's the weekend. Tonight we're planning to pick up dinner and take Binks and Bear to a nearby state park for a picnic. It's a really nice park - it's right between the beach and the canal and it's full of big trees so I always feel like I'm back home in the northeast. Plus it's starting to feel like fall at night here so hopefully it will be a nice night to be outside. 

Tomorrow I'm finally going to get a chance to run some errands. I've already prepared by first lecture for next week, so I can take a break this weekend. I've been going through some serious Target withdrawal. We're also going to give Binks and Bear their baths this weekend at some point, so I think it's going to be a busy weekend but definitely in a good way! 


  1. I won't get your hopes up, because I did that last cycle and it sucked. So you can try not to get your hopes up, and I will be the super optimistic one (that is one pretty chart!) keeping everything crossed for you!!! <3

  2. Test!!! Geez! You're killing me here! LOL