Well after talking (and more talking) and a lot of good luck in the form of a slightly longer (for me) cycle, Seth and I have decided to start prepping for IVF this month. I'm not really sure what made Seth change his mind - he just said that he realized that what I was saying in terms of timing made sense.
When he told me he was ready, I panicked a little bit. I had been feeling so confident that this was the right decision, but actually making the call to pursue IVF was a little scary. I felt sick - kind of like I was about to give a big presentation or take an important exam. I still feel 100% confident that this the right choice for us. We've had 19 cycles with great timing plus surgery. It's time to do something and IVF makes the most sense for us.
So here we go! Friday was CD1 for me. Tomorrow, CD4, I'll go in to the clinic for some blood work and an ultrasound to check my antral follicle count (AFC) again. It was 14 last time so I hope it's still decent. We also have to sign our contract. After that, Seth and I will go to another lab so that I can check my AMH level again (2.4 last time). They're also doing an indirect Coombs test since my blood type is A-. Seth just needs to do the infectious disease panel. On Thursday, I'll go back to the clinic to see Dr. M. I need to have an exam, a pap test and then we'll do the trial transfer. Nurse Jacki explained that the trial transfer allows Dr. M to make a "road map" of my uterus so that whoever performs the embryo transfer will know what type of catheter to use.
As long as everything looks okay, I will start taking BCPs this week and I'll continue to take them for about 4 weeks. Once all of the results of my testing are in, Dr. M will come up with a protocol for me and NJ will order my meds. I will probably start stimming late January or early February will an egg retrieval (ER) and embryo transfer (ET) in February.
Like I said, I'm nervous. Scared shitless is probably more accurate. There are so many thoughts and feelings running through my head. I think maybe it will start to feel more real after my appointments this week and then I'll be able to relax and bit. Maybe.
I think it's totally normal to feel nervous, but like you said, you know this is the right decision for you - doesn't mean it's not at least a little scary. You know I am rooting so hard for you!!! <3
ReplyDeleteOh I am so happy and excited for you! I know this is a huge step and I definitely felt scared shitless when we made the decision too. It sort of felt like working my way up the side of a mountain and then making the decision to just step off! I'm here if you have any questions at all and will join J in rooting hardcore for you!!
ReplyDeleteThanks guys! I'm sure I will have tons of questions and I'm definitely going to need a pre-injection pep talk for one of you :)
ReplyDeleteI'm so excited for you to get started! FX for your results to come back great so you can get going. I think it's totally normal to be scared shitless right now! This is an enormous step. Love you lady!
ReplyDeleteOh my gosh! I'm so glad your cycle held out! I kept stalking your chart and hoping that it would. <3 You are totally allowed to be nervous. The rest of us will be excited for you until you can get here too. :-)
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