My "Furst" Baby

Today sucks.

About two weeks ago, I took Bear to the vet because he had a little bump on his head. We noticed it because it was bleeding, but it didn't look like just a regular cut. The vet said that it probably wasn't a big deal because it was small and it seemed to be just in the upper layer of his skin. She gave us so sort of cream and told us to come back in 7-10 days if it wasn't gone or better.

Well, it's not gone or better. It's still bleeding and the bump hasn't changed in size at all. We took him back this morning. The vet was surprised that it wasn't gone. She said that it's still possible that it's no big deal - it could be a wart or some other harmless skin thing. She was concerned that it wasn't healing though and mentioned two cancers - one malignant, one benign - and thought that we should remove it in case it's one of those. If it's the latter, no big deal - at least we removed it so it doesn't keep bleeding and get infected. If it's the first one, the malignant one...I can't think about that right now.

I'm so worried. Bear is my first baby. We went through all of that bullshit with his kidney and the surgeries when he was just 2.5 months old. Now he's only 2.5 years old and he might have cancer? The poor little guy hates the vet. He tries to sit in my lap as soon as we get in the exam room. Today he just kept his little face in my lap while the vet tried to get a biopsy (it was too small, unfortunately). I hate that we have to put him through more testing.

Binks didn't like when his brother was taken to the back room. He's a sweet boy too.

On Wednesday morning, I'm going to drop him off and they're going to try to remove it using just local anesthetic since he's such a good boy. I wish I could sit with him though. After that, we'll have to wait for the pathology report to come back. I hope that it doesn't take too long. There can't be something wrong with him. I need him to be fine.

Look at that little face. He's such a mama's boy. Please say a prayer for my little Bear!