Only one more sleep until our second ultrasound. Less than 24 hours. I'm so, so nervous.
Tomorrow is our second "baby scan" at the clinic and if everything looks okay, we will graduate from the RE. I'm worried that everything is not okay. I'm worried that I was wrong about the incident over the weekend. I haven't had any bleeding or cramping, but I know that is not a guarantee that everything is okay. Part of me realizes that there is a 90% chance that the baby is fine, but another part remembers that there was an 85% chance that we would get pregnant on our own in under a year. There was a 60-70% chance that my endometriosis would not cause infertility. I'm a statistical loser, so I worry.
I'm making a deal with myself. If all goes well tomorrow, I'm going to take the day to just be happy. I'm not going to worry. I'm going to let myself feel excited about this and enjoy it even if it only lasts for a few hours.
Keeping my fingers crossed that you have a great ultrasound tomorrow and are released to an OB! I have not stopped worrying, but with each ultrasound and each milestone that passes, I breathe a little easier. Hopefully the same will be true for you. I love the idea of celebrating after your ultrasound, even if just for a few hours! <3
ReplyDeleteI remember freaking out because I had similar pains. I'm keeping everything crossed for you that your appointment will go well.
ReplyDeletehoping the u/s goes (is going? went?) perfect!
ReplyDeleteGood luck today!
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