I'm sort of a mess this week. My PaIF brain is going a little crazy. I do not feel pregnant. I don't feel anything. Just nothingness. It's freaking me out a lot because I always felt a sense of nothingness before every CD1. I am NOT complaining about a lack of physical symptoms - I am so thankful that I have an easy pregnancy so far. I'm just having a really hard time with the mental stuff right now. It's like I'm having flashbacks to the 20 something cycles of failure and all of the same feelings are coming back - fear, sadness, hopelessness. Even though I can feel all of the stretchy feelings and I've been listening to Baby's heartbeat, I can't shake these feelings. Hopefully I start feeling better after my OB appointment this week.
How far along: 17 weeks! Baby is the size of an onion - about 5 inches long and weighs about 6 oz. His/her skeleton is still hardening and fat is starting to accumulate.
Physical symptoms:Ute stretching and RLP
Total Weight Gain/Loss:Only +2.2 pounds. I guess I was just really bloated last week. Add this to the list of things that I'm worried about...
Maternity clothes:Still not wearing them, but I finally found a belly band that fits me - it's the one from Target. I think the brand is Ingrid and Isabel. This should get me through work in my regular pants for the first month or two.
Stretch marks:This is a stupid question. The answer will be no until/if I get them and then it will be yes for the rest of the time. I'm done with this one.
Sleep:Eh. My hip pain is back, but it's not as bad as before so I'm getting an okay amount of sleep.
Best moment of the week: Easy - Chickin's BFP <3 <3 <3
Movement: Nothing yet :(
Food cravings: Olives, french fries, soda, olives
Sex: Not sure yet
Belly button:Same as the stretch marks question
What I miss:Walking my dogs (actually holding the leash). I wasn't allowed to walk them when I was on exercise restrictions and now everyone is afraid for me to walk them alone in case I fall or something. There's this fucking fox in the neighborhood that follows us - really closely - every single day and the dogs freak out and pull to try to get it. So I understand everyone's concerns, but I miss just taking my boys out whenever I want. At least we can still go for rides in the car.
What I am looking forward to:I can't wait for Seth to get back from his trip this week. And also - only 8 more sleeps until the anatomy scan! I'm so, so nervous.
Milestones: Still pregnant as far as I know. Bump Watch: Yeah...there's not much there.